when i get to…

work with people like this:

faded black

check out the link…you won’t regret it

 

boom, goes the dynamite

clockwatcher…

watching a clock is never fun. so why not stare at a screen and write the latest and greatest since the last entry…

 

the biggest news or adventure was my trip to HAWAII on the infamous North Shore. 7 days and 6 nights on a yoga retreat immersed in paradise. waters as blue as the skies and sunsets as delicious as rainbow sorbet on a summers day…i fell in love instantly. there was no way i couldn’t.

waking up to the ocean and falling asleep to the ocean i really felt like i was in heaven on earth…

i love hawaii i love hawaii i love hawaii

 

when can i go back??? 

tea & laundry

tea and laundry to make sense of it all.

asterisks. just learned when and how to use them believe it or not…i never claimed to be a writer. my grammar is horrible. and everything i say or think is a run on sentence. this brain of mine is constantly on. kind of. there are a handful of times that my brain takes a rest. running is on that hand. i suppose when listening to music this also happens…not sure if the color that swirls in my head counts as thoughts. this only happens when i listen to classical music. i always seem to get caught up in a rainbow of colors while the music crescendos or decrescendos. i have no idea what it means. maybe nothing. maybe something. 

right now my brain is simply tired. when this happens it is at its highest peak in run on sentences…as you might be able to tell…just trying to stay awake really. made the mistake of putting in the last load not realizing what time it was or how long i would have to keep these heavy lids of mine open. 

so here i am at the kitchen table tapping on the keyboard all the while accompanied by the aroma of the beautiful lilies that were given to me by someone very thoughtful. as of late i find myself surrounded by an abundance of thoughtful human beings. not to say that i wasn’t before; but it really does feel like it has been more than usual. in a matter of a week i was given lilies, the harry potter series in hardcovers, and a cookie bigger than my face (thats pretty big). it’s not the gifts themselves that impressed me; but the thoughtfulness that warmed my heart. 

there have also been a few other things that have come up that i can’t seem to explain. not sure if to describe them as serendipitous or fate. are they synonymous? don’t know and i am too tired to really sort it out… guess i will just see how the cards fall. makes me a bit nervous and anxious; however somehow i feel like it will all work itself out the way its meant to be regardless of my wondering or worrying.

the dryer is done spinning, and for the moment while i fold the laundry, so will my mind.  

fold the laundry, go to bed, run it out, wash, rinse, repeat…

splendor in the grass

what an awesome day. nothing planned. just moment to moment…now if I could only live that way with everything else in my life…work in progress…

springing into action

almost three weeks no writing…no surprise really. have spent most of march trying to get healthy and just trying to breathe out my nose like a regular healthy human being. i never realized up until recently how being healthy makes a huge difference. being able to think clearly without allowing the cold medications making you drowsy or tired is such blessing.

feel like i am getting back on track and crossing my fingers that all will be healthy living. no more tissue boxes living at the side of my bed or the taste of cherry medicine running down my throat. i am definitely going to have to make up for lost time. i have a yoga retreat in 3 weeks and a half marathon in about 5-6 weeks. might have to give up the sauce to get back on track an give my body the advantage of having only healthy food and drink in me. 

so here is to APRIL…may it be full of great adventure, love, laughter, and healthy living!!

roll on the good life xx

STOP KONY2012

STOP KONY2012

Benny was right…that Sam guy, is NOT my uncle…

TAXES…when filing in another state you come to realize it cost you more to work there then you actually earned. That’s just a load of bollocks. Luckily made out in CA to make up for that payment. Was looking forward to more of a return to help pay for an upcoming trip to Hawaii; however I will make do with what I have. Benny Franklin was right, “…In this world nothing can be said to be certain, except death and taxes.”

Not gonna let that put a damper on things and go forward. Although with the latest information I have learned about taxes past…well lets just say Uncle Sam isn’t my uncle. If he was my uncle, he would pay for the debt I have accrued, eek.

I guess I should just focus on the below…not too shabby, if I do say so myself…EYE on the PRIZE

File It

had the opportunity this weekend to spend some time with some of my most favorite people. it felt like ages that i had seen them; although it never feels like that when we actually do get together. we just seem to pick up from where we left off.

the common theme of all my conversations was how we are all feeling a little lost. how we aren’t sure of what the next step is. some of it may have to do with the time of year. some of it may just have to do with where we all are at this time. sometimes you just don’t have an answer…and thats ok. i suppose it was just comforting to know we are all in it together.

definitely grateful for all the awesome people that make this life so rich. through the thick and thin, i know that i am in good company.

 

Change is Good.

whether its a wig, a new place of employment, or new people…change is good. most of the time we try & work so hard to keep things status quo. reality of it is things are always changing. nothing stays the same. it’s just a natural evolution. a believer that everything happens for a reason, I know my silver lining isn’t too far away. actually starting to feel exited about all the possibilities. I got a good feeling…

I overcooked the rice and beans…

rice&beans

Today was definitely a better day compared to the last few I have had. Good to learn new things, be reminded that when one door closes another one opens, and remember that I need to make the rice with one cuppa water than I put in the rice cooker.

Baby steps.

After speaking, IMing, and texting with a few of my good friends I was reminded to let it go, let it flow. We need to remember that when we make mistakes we need to recognize them, learn from them, and then let them go. Be kind to yourself and remember that life happens.

Yes, we all know this. We have told all these things to someone when they were feeling bad. Now people are reminding me of the same…I appreciate it. These lessons keep coming up over and over again and not until I am done with the lesson they will continue to happen. It’s a cycle.

I am trying to create new behavior. Behavior that doesn’t allow any room for regret. Recognize that I am human and as long as I am on this earth I will continue to learn every minute of every day. I suppose I should be worried when I don’t feel like I have anything left to learn. That will never happen…there is always room to be a better person…always. No excuses.

I now realize why I have been doing so many 30day challenges. Taking myself to the limits and now realizing how I thought “little” things do really affect me. No sugar, no alcohol, and no FB. As embarrassed, as I am to admit, those three things definitely had a hold on my behavior. I wish I could be like those people who say, “I don’t need to be on FB, or I don’t need to drink alcohol, or I don’t really like sugar” I am not that person. And that is definitely ok. I am able to admit now and deal with it.

Onward and upward, I say. It’s time to appreciate all of the lessons learned, even the tough ones, and move on. This life is too short to not be happy. I sometimes forget that I only need to take it one step at a time and that I don’t need to get overwhelmed to feel like I am doing something about my life. All it takes is that one step.

I might have overcooked the rice and beans; but I will not be discouraged from trying again